It hasn't, hasn't always gone my way
It hasn't, hasn't always gone my way
Does it mean it wasn't meant to be'
Does it mean that I have been so selfish'
(x2)

Verse:
I bought a pretty birdy rather early in the daytime
I let it fly away and saw it headed towards the grapevines
Feeling like I need a little freedom from the heat indeed
I'm beating up my spirit, wanna trade it with the parakeet
Praying for the barricade to break and take the pain away
I wait, bathing in the lake of my mistake
Aching for Your grace, Your ways are great, Father You're awesome
Dream catchers couldn't catch me when I'm falling

Do You promise that You'll hold me often'
Cleanse me with Your fountain'
Even when my soul is in doubt'
And I'm falling, carrying my coffin
Heavy like Your cross is
Wandering around and I'm lost
And the dawn has risen on Your garden
Which I am so far from
Tempted on the mountain, my God
But I'm falling, carrying my coffin
Heavy like Your cross is
Wandering around and I'm lost



Verse:
Worst-case scenario, unprepared for the merry-go-round
Spinning and pinned to the horse, of course I just wanna get down
It'll belittle me really, stomach is turning and twisted
Plunging and pumping like pistons, instantly sicker than sick
History snickers at me, broker than ever could be
I'm over the threat of defeat but under debris
Reaching for reasons for me to preach at the prisons
Oh give me wisdom to overcome this bridge and this haunted system



Chorus 2:
It hasn't, hasn't always gone my way
(For Your eyes are looking to and fro throughout the earth)
It hasn't, hasn't always gone my way
(Finding vessels that are only Yours, fully Yours)
Does it mean it wasn't meant to be'
(For Your eyes are looking here and there throughout the earth)
Does it mean that I have been so selfish'
(Finding vessels that are truly Yours, fully Yours)
It hasn't, hasn't always gone my way
(Should I stay' Should I run' Should I pray')
It hasn't, hasn't always gone my way
(Please open doors and close the ones that lead astray)
Does it mean it wasn't meant to be'
(What's the plan' What's the path' What's Your will')
Does it mean that I have been so selfish'
(Please open doors and close the ones that lead astray)

You wouldn't wanna look into my face back in 1978
And see a baby that a mother could hate, then look away
Momma never rocked me to sleep
Daddy was a creep
Momma crept and left me on a doorstep
As I slept bundled nestled in a basket
She sends me floating down the LA river
God forgive her
I knew it back then that action was just a fraction
Of my life's conquest, Moses
A paradox of unorthodox type of hard knock life
Traumatized with no sight
You wouldn't wanna look into my mind back in 1979
Well look inside and tell me what you can find
Don't, nevermind
Aching for Your grace and Your ways are great, You're so awesome
Dream catchers couldn't catch me when I'm falling
But I'm falling, carrying my coffin
Heavy like Your cross is
Wandering around and I'm lost