So, far away from where I've come
With a question of where Ive gone
To make it so hard to go on
Just holding back and playing strong

So many times I play it back
To when I had it withing grasp
How could I let it all go on
Thinking something better could come along
It's so hard to ignore

If I could take control and open up my eyes
I could finally see my deprive
if I could take this moment to find what's slipping deep inside
Maybe I could go back and make it right

So how can I just turn around
And try to make up the lost ground
It's not that hard to figure out
By myself I may as well quit now
It's so hard to ignore

If I had counted my blessings, then I might
Not be stuck in this unending suicide