So you think I could be a man free of sin'
I've done enough to prove I'm not capable of that.
I'm not claiming I'm all that bad but
I'm not surprised that I've created distance from my past.
Three hundred sixty five days ago
I was a different man once my world caught on fire
There has been a slight chance of plan
More liquor has been poured
Found out love is for whores
White powder allowed bad ideas to form
All of this consequence this year could be my last.
Maybe I am crazy.
How bout a taste of my own private hell.
But either way I'm okay I'm alive today.
One day you'll know the pain I feel.
But it won't take away this pain I feel.
One day I'm expecting to pay for the things I've done in this life
I've tried to take my time but it never turns out right.
I know it's just a matter of time.
If only all of you could see into my mind
Then you would probably find a boy who's barely clinging to life.
But either way I'm okay I'm alive today.
I wouldn't trade it for anyone's life.
But it won't take away this pain.