Bury me next to my homies I don't care no more
I'm drinking liquor and my lungs full of weed smoke
Years full of tears that I shed plus a thousand times
Make a thousand times my eyes been red
My eyes rarely ever get red
Even if I drink a whole bunch of liquor smoke a blunt
And go to bed I can't wake up with the same high
Trust in the Lord is what they telling me
Like I'm about to die but what's a vision to me
Clouded memories from my childhood
Ever since the day of my birth
Its been less than heavenly
Believe good just the way I should
It never seem to change
Living in this world has brought me pain
Stuck in fallen rain
I can't explain the reason that kids die
Please help me understand Jesus my question is why
His reply its part of a bigger plan just do your part
And never question me again but you can smile
Its getting harder to smile for me
Only when I see the sun shine
Do I feel God watching me
Its getting harder to smile for me
Only when I see the sun shine
Do I feel God watching me
Its getting harder to smile for me
Now when I hear the trigger blast
I don't care better him than me
Living in this city for so long
I wouldn't be surprised
If my number came up out of jealousy
My younger days I prayed for peace
But it wasn't this bad
It wasn't this many dead bodies touching the street
Sitting in a cold cell no shoes on my feet
Disgusted the sight to see blood on my jewelry
From the juvenile hall to the county jail
I rebel as I share with you the wickedest of tales
From the day I went a stray
Up to the day I found my place
Along the way I grew up fast case after case
I'm lost for words hoping I ain't lose my soul
Hustling this one life trying to fill my pockets with gold
I'm getting blasted and thugging 'til my casket
I'm loving it
Discover my passion and single out my madness
Only when I see the sun shine I feel safe again
Life is what you make it
Make it count
Make it fun again
Its getting harder to smile for me
Only when I see the sun shine
Do I feel God watching me
Its getting harder to smile for me
Only when I see the sun shine
Do I feel God watching me
Its getting harder to smile for me
Only when I see the sun shine
Do I feel God watching me
